I am the armchair traveller, already been to watch 32 different movies, from about 20 different countries, i guess i should be having delusions about travelling the entire world from watching movies. Nope, i’ve not reached that point. And i must say i’m having an extremely good time being part of this year’s Melbourne Film Festival. I am not a student of film, though i’d like to be one, nor a movie-maker, but the visions and perspectives that can be viewed through the minds of so many individuals is what i would be looking for, coming to terms with words, depictions, stories, parables, lessons and why people do the things people do and why we are where we are. Movies go a long way reiterating what we would like people to perceive, and indie filmmakers have seemingly so, an agenda more than money.
My host here in Melbourne, Beatrice, asked me cordially about whether i’d enjoy movies more by not knowing anything before watching it, or having read up about it first and then expecting something. I didn’t know what to say; more often than not i would read up all i can about the movies i watch, without spoiling the fun. I would say that forming an expectation level can be good, for your expectations can be exceeded by the film and it turns out to be quite a feeling. However, the feeling of not knowing what to expect can create something different, but it really depends on the mood of the movie.
Enough bout movies for now.
Friday seems to be the movie-day i’m not particularly up for. Instead i’ll be pondering more about my future, my departing Sydney which i have grown accustomed to, my returning home. That there is a great deal to ponder, worries me, since i have probably ignored most of it all to the 15 mins i spend reflecting on my life before i sleep. And Lord, have i neglected You.
When one is focused on Him, there often is a voice reminding me that no problem conjured by man was impossible for Him to solve, and i do not hear that voice now. I hear doubts. I feel as though my footprints are going backwards. In my own way i have moved out of the glory of God in my life, and i only run raggedly whenever i need Him. A thousand times we’ve been reminded, to always stay in focus, yet we can be blinded by the events unfolding before us everyday, and everyday is a continuation of our routine habits divided into timelines called days, weeks and months. Our natural tendency to sin takes up residence every moment we’re not engaging in the habit of staying in the Light. But Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
